I've realized that what I want and need may be right in front of me, but I don't always recognize it. While that's a fact of life that I've known to be true, it's never been more apparent than it has been over the past couple of weeks.
It's as if the blinds on my windows of life are slowly being opened, and what I see is not at all what I expected. I have dreamed and imagined about what lay beyond the white mask, only to find unfamiliar colors. The more I peer through the sliver of the blinds, the more I begin to distinguish the true forms beyond my window. I like what I see, even though it's doesn't always parallel my initial dreams; it's better.
What I want in life is right in front of me---right now---waiting for me to recognize it and take hold. It's been a broken, bumpy, and bewildering road, but I feel as if I am starting to align what I want with what the Lord wants. Life and love aren't supposed to be easy, and they certainly haven't been.
I feel like I am on the cusp of different elements in my life falling into place and it's kinda scary; like I don't want to say anything out loud for fear of jinxing it. Happiness is within my grasp more than it ever has been in my life. The twist is finding what I need and want, and it being able to find me too.