It's been awhile...

It's been awhile since I've blogged. Life has been kinda crazy...but isn't it always? We all love to use that excuse for a whole number of things, right along with the whole "I'm dealing with some issues right now". Oh how I love that particular excuse. For some people it is legitimate, but too many times people use this to avoid those quote "issues" that they have. We all have I-S-S-U-E-S. Life is full of them. In fact, life is one issue after another. The trick is learning how to face life and the issues that are constantly presented to us.

I am grateful for what I have learned and experienced in my life thus far. While I may be far from perfect, every struggle, heartache, disappointment makes me a better, stronger person. That is a very cliched statement, and one I hate to have others tell me, but it really is true.

The other day my good friend Sarah and I were talking about some things and she completely nailed my personality. It was strangely frightening to hear it out loud from another person. I put my whole heart into things---relationships, experiences, opportunities etc. I try to give my whole self. It doesn't mean that I always jump head first into things, but the things I do and devote my time to in my life are extremely valuable to me. I've always said everything I do has meaning. This personality trait is a two edge sword. While being deep makes me who I am, it also sets me up for more disappointment and heartache. However, I would rather take a chance on something or someone and get hurt, than be too scared to have the experience at all...the whole idea of it being better to have loved and lost than never loved at all.

This past week or so I have realized that I truly am happy with who I am and what I want in life. I am a good person who deserves to be treated as such. I value honesty and people saying what they need to say---even if it hurts, even if it's the hardest thing you have to do. Sarah is always completely---sometimes brutally---honest with me. It's why we are such good friends, because even when we have to have hard conversations, we take the time and put in the effort to have them. Sometimes when we have hard things to say to each other, we quote Amanda Bynes from She's the Man, "Speaking as a completely objective, third party person with absolutely no interest in the matter...". That always seems to work wonders :-)

I was talking to my friend Kendall the other day about why some people are just losers and his reply was "It's in the genetics". I had to laugh at that. Let's hope that we are not among the genetically flawed...


Alyssa said...

Clarissa I just love reading your blog! You are definitely an amazing person and I am so lucky to know you! Love your attitude, love your honestly, love you!!!!!

jjfid said...

Joe give you "two thumbs up!"

Spencer Fidler said...

Sister! My goodness the first time commenting on your blog. It is WAY too overdue.

I love your blog. I believe the "right person" for us, is one that can manage the issues, and let life continue on, because you are so right. Life is an Issue, and is also full of them. We have to learn to live with the issues, instead of them making it impossible to live.

You are wonderful, and have so much ahead coming for you. People talk about Karma, I dont know if I believe it at times, but you have got great Karma coming your way. The ones that burn you, um, not so much.

Love you sis!